So, this is my first blog in almost 2 years. I have been contemplating getting back into it a little, not really to make a big impact but, to have a place for expression and relief. Comment or don't, read it or don't, just know I am going to be completely transparent and open in the things I post. My hope is to one relieve pressures and thoughts off of my back but maybe to help someone else in the process.

God Bless and away we go...

Today was a crazy day for a multitude of reasons, some personal but others I will express.

I have, for a while, been a terrible father (confession, not just saying that but, cause I know it). I have anger issues or maybe more accurately control issues. Any time one of my children does something I have told them not to do or I think they should know better there is a false sense of me not having control of the situation. Instead of dealing with it I turn to the easy outlet of yelling and trying to control with bullying. Listen, I am not proud of it or am I trying to make excuses for my actions. I am just trying to be transparent.

But here is the thing. I, on a daily basis, shove my foot in my mouth or any other saying you can think of that describes me seeing how much of a prick I am. There is not a day that goes by that each one of my children does something that I just sit back and say, "Why in the world did God give me something this amazing and special?"

Proverbs 19:11 says...

A man's wisdom gives him patience;
it is to his glory to overlook an offense.

I read this and realize that I react in anger because I don't know what to do. I think that by creating fear in my children they will listen to me. But it instantly and visibly causes them to shutdown and instead of them doing what I have asked them to do they cry and do not do what I have asked which then just makes me even more mad. It is so counter productive but because of the lack of wisdom the cycle continues.

I love my children deeply and I want to change. But without wisdom of how to handle the situation there is no way these situations will change. I know that the bible is the treasure of wisdom but, especially lately, life has been happening at an exponential rate and time is just slipping away. My plan is to dive even more into study and prayer and allow God the control of my anger. But, as we all know, his ways and thoughts are higher than ours. So, he has been using situations to point out the reasons that my children deserve more. See the picture below.

That is my crazy son Carson. Here is a short version of what happened at the mall today.

We went in to switch out Hali's iPad cause it had been acting up. The girls left the Apple store and walked down to Justice for some clothes shopping. Me and the boys stayed behind and I let them play at the children's table with iPads. Getting close to an appointment we had I gathered them up and walked to Justice. While we were in there the boys ran over to the toys so I was just hanging out. I looked back up and Carson was nowhere to be seen. Not really freaking out just yet since, well that is just how my boys have fun, I start looking around the store and notice the employees in the front of the store laughing and looking towards the front window. I also noticed people stopping by the window and pointing in with a smile and puzzled face. I walked out front and looked and the below picture is what I saw. I couldn't help but bust out laughing. And had this thought, "These kids push my buttons and get me so angry over the smallest things, then they do something so random and incredibly amazing, how could I ever treat them the way I do."

I also thought, we look at God in a similar way. We get angry when God doesn't "give" us the things we ask for or think we deserve to have but when the "great" things happen we are so quick to give him credit and be so thankful. But, what I have realized is that it is not when the "great" things happen that we learn and/or receive the greatest "gift" but it is those times that we don't and have to adjust to His plan and not ours that we truly see or discover the "greatest" gifts.

This probably came off as a random rant and, well, it was but, here is the point to myself.

I should not be looking only at the times where my kids blow me away or make me laugh but pay attention to those times where my first reaction would be to spark in anger and look deep for the diamond from the coal which is that bad situation.

God Bless you and I hopefully didn't waste your time.

Friends and Family,

I am excited to let you all know that I am participating in St. Baldrick's Day this year at Larkin's on the River (downtown Greenville, SC) on March 14th. Cody and myself have been following a blog about a 6 year old girl Kate Mcrae who has brain cancer and has hit really hard on our hearts. Below is her website.

http://prayforkate.com/

So, I will be shaving my head in solidarity with children who have cancer and typically lose their hair during treatment, while raising critical funds for childhood cancer research. The St. Baldrick's Day Foundation funds more in childhood cancer research grants than any organization except the U.S. government, more than $12 million in 2009 alone.

I am now asking for three things. First, if you are interested in shaving your head too, I am looking for as many people to do this with me as possible. Along with a few other dads from Stone Academy, the "team" is called the Stone Heads. If you would like to join our team, simply go to the site below to register to be on the team (there is a green link on the right hand side of the page that says "participate with this team"):


The Team site:
http://www.stbaldricks.org/teams/mypage/teamid/66203


Secondly I am asking that you pray for all who have cancer and those of us who will be involved in this wonderful opportunity to serve others. Pray for people to donate above and beyond what they fill is “enough” so we can further this research and help save lives.

Third and most importantly, I am asking for you to please give to this great cause. Please forward this to as many people you know that might be willing to give as well. Thank you for your help...my goal for the Stone Heads this year is $2000... but my “Personal Goal” is $1000. I know if we can spread this out it can happen. Please help us meet this!



Below is the link where you can donate online to my site. All donations go straight to St Baldrick’s and not to me. If you would like to submit to me you can and I will donate to the site.

https://www.stbaldricks.org/donate/donationinfo/participantid/380485/nouser/1


Thank you so much!



Josh Wyatt

DJ ACRIS

Yep the seasons are changing and the sickness is invading.

You know if you have kids, "if one gets it, they all get it." Well praise God that wasn't quiet the case for us as Meccia just battled through what the doctors say was H1N1 Type A. We quarintined her to her room for about 5 days and knocked it out without getting it spread to anyone else. Just a note: 6 year olds do not like to be in the same room for 5 days. So then, Easton started a croupy cough and had it for a few days and Carson started some sinus issues which I believe to be a spreading of what Easton had just in a different form. So, Cody caught that and has felt like crap for a week with a BAD cough and has started on a ton of medicine to clear that up. Hopefully the meds can knock it out of her quickly because I now feel it coming on. Nothing terrible just the "Season Changing" stuffy nose and itchy throat cold.

I said all that not asking for simpathy but to prove a point. "Seasons Change" and you have to adapt and conquer the change to make the upcoming season work. I am in a few "Changing Seasons" in my life right now. One with the actual seasons and another with my life in general. God talks quietly alot and I can usually pick up on things and other times he is in my ear with a megaphone and I have no idea what he is saying.

As a lot of you may know I am kind of a "Techy", not a "Trecky"(no offense to you Star Trek fans), so my life is filled with internet and electronics on a daily basis. I mean I work from home on a computer and I have five computers in my house, three of which are in MY office. I love audio/video, mograph and static graphic design as well and most of the time I am on a computer doing something. It is very hard to disconnect for me becuase most of my life is spent trying to connect others.

So some thoughts crossed me this morning as I was walking my girls to their classes "late again" and while I was reading Perry Nobles blog about being frustrated.

#1 - I do not get enough rest.
I cram all day long thinking if I don't do this or get that done the world will end....It wont. Life is a funny thing, you can't do without it but it can go on without you.

#2 - I can't usually say "No". I want to help everyone but then don't have enough time to help the ones that really need me. I have to prioritize better the things that I "need" to do and the things that I "want" to do.

#3 - I DO NOT DISCONNECT. This I think is a large part of a lot of my failures. To my wife especially, the phone has to be cutoff and the attention needs to be on what I am doing not what I need to do later. Be in the moment...The present is named that for a reason. Enjoy the gifts of life's moments and not the failures of life's pasts or the upcoming future.

There are definitley more things I could list but would rather not put myself in a more depressive state than I am already in. Thanks for listening and I hope you can use my life to better yours.

God Bless
Josh Wyatt
DJ ACRIS

Sup blogworld,

It has been a while and I wanted to be able to post something profound and mind altering...but I haven't ever done that so I don't know why I would start now. I basically wanted to jot some things down that I have been wanting to do and see if any one else would be interested in helping or would like to be a spectator.

There are a few things I have been thinking about doing...

1) I want to throw a concert. I was thinking of getting a large Christian Hip Hop act such as R-Swift, Mars Ill or KJ-52, someone along those lines. Then, bring in local groups, whether they be bands of local Christian Hip Hop artists. I haven't thrown a show in a while and just love doing that kind of thing.

2) If not a Hip Hop feel then do a local concert. I know that The Channel is all over the local Christian Band Scene and do not want to take anything away from what that ministry is doing but also would like for it to be to big to fill that spot. Still using all local acts with maybe on Headliner that could bring the masses.

3) I used to use Livestream(formerly Ustream) to stream church services live on the internet and would love to start a weekly or even BiWeekly show that is me spinning records and maybe interviewing local artists. Kind of like a readio show but using video and live streaming on the internet. It would take a lot of planning and be somewhere that had a large internet capacity. I only have a 256Kb upload, which is not going to be good.

The main thing is finances. I am by no means asking people for money but would love for people to volunteer their time, venue and donations to get these things started. I have no plans set in stone right now but would like your input to see if anyone would like to get involved in some or all of these things.

Give me a shout or hit me up on one of my many avenues.

DJACRIS.COM
FACEBOOK
MYSPACE
EMAIL
TWITTER

I must say we had a good time at Carson's 3rd birthday party.

I wish I could say I did nothing on "Labor Day" but that would be a false statement. Although I will probably not be able to move in the morning I did get a pretty good bit done.

So for the past few months my Friday's have been crazy and this one was no different.

I have at least 4 conference calls each Friday for my J O B and sometimes 6. On the days I have six my schedule is as follows:

9am - 10am
10:15am - 10:45am
11:00am -12:00pm
1:00pm - 2:00pm
2:15pm - 2:45pm
3:00pm - 4:00pm

Today was one of those days. On the days I have four calls I don't have the 10:15am and 2:15pm calls which are for new reps and usually there are no one on those calls but I have to sit on a conference number for about 5 or 10 minutes just to make sure no one shows up. It is a very lonely feeling when that happens.

On Fridays I try to use the time in between calls to play around with the Adobe suite(After Effects, Photoshop, Illustrator) and some other stuff like Reason, Pro Tools, and my latest addition to my toys the wonderful 15" MacBook. I am still in the process of loading Pro Tools and Reason on the Mac but will have to eventually by the Adobe Suite for Mac when I can scrounge up a couple thousand dollars, unless one of you who are reading this want to be super generous and sling me a few G's to get that started.

Here is my latest test on a series Revolution Church is starting on September 20th. This is just a test and more than likely the finished product will look nothing like this. I have been trying new things and most of the time realize that it looks terrible so I have to ask some design pals of mine for help.

Moral = Go to college!!!

Here is the link. Hope you enjoy and let me know your opinions...PLEASE!!!!

Have a wonderful and safe Labor Day Weekend.